Saturday, June 29, 2013
He's changed slightly, a little less negative, gained a little weight, a little more friendly to my friends and family as they wander through while he is here, that's about it though.
Our relationship is very similar to what it was the last time I saw him, one year ago almost exactly. I thought it might be different at first, as he was very affectionate and sweet the first couple days. Now, however, its became the same old routine.
So essentially, its become the longest one night stand of my life.
So why do I do it? Boredom, loneliness, sucker? Could possibly be any of the above. I think its because unfortunately for me, this man, still retains part of my heart. I haven't let him go completely. I'm not even sure why that is. Could be that he is easy on the eye, wicked smart, and funny as hell. Or it could be that he is mildly unattainable to me, and don't we all just love what we cant have? It will be interesting to see what develops in the next two weeks.
On another note, my little wizpert page seems to be coming along quite well, slowly, but good. I think most of the people I "help" on there, really just want to be heard and having a sounding board to chat with about life. Don't we al need someone who is unbiased and will just listen and respond sometimes? That's what I like about my cat.
Also, my first Glossy Box arrives in a few days, I'm super excited about that! Getting to test out luxury beauty items is right up my alley of fun stuff to do! Sephora may weep at the loss of my credit card charges, but the fact I get to hang out testing beauty products does my soul good :)
Tata for now, M
Monday, June 24, 2013
Sunday, June 23, 2013
Last night I was laying on my couch, giving out advice through my new hobby....wizpert.com....which is in beta testing right now...trying to tell people how to work on their romantic or platonic relationships.....I know, who are you to give advice? Just a woman with a lot of life experience and the ability to listen and help people sort through their emotions. More on wizpert later though.
Anyways I got a text from The Cougar, whose nickname for this blog may need to change(-your about to find out why) regarding our favorite topic, men.
So let me catch you up on my favorite Cougar....She decided a few months back that she needed a relationship. Needless to say I was shocked. This is the one friend I have who had never previously even hinted at a desire for a relationship, quite the opposite exactly. I almost choked on my Pepsi that night in the middle of karaoke and all.
So, to continue on, we have a mutual friend, who is very much married and very much likes to cheat. She informed me he texted her, wanting to get a "drink". She had responded with perhaps. She then went on to inform that fwb's bore her now.
This lead me to contemplate why that is. There was a period of time that casual sex and fwb's were perfectly fine. However, I've noticed not only her, but many more of my friends are getting less about the casual and more about the commitment. The question is....Why? We aren't in mid-life crisis mode...yet. We financially support ourselves...It's it loneliness,? Is it maturity? Is it a fear of growing old alone? The jury is out on what motivates us to seek out stronger relationships with the opposite sex....hopefully it's got positive reasons not just to cure loneliness. I know from experience you can be just as lonely married as you are single. Perhaps we just like substance and quality over quantity.
Saturday, June 22, 2013
Friday, June 21, 2013
However, other recent events have occurred. I went back to school, sure I'm only taking one to two classes a semester, but its a start right? I may be 90 by the time I finish but at least I can say I'm a college graduate some day. I find the classes interesting, they are online and definitely takes a lot of self control to do homework rather then watch Big Bang Theory and get my nerd fix or watch True Blood and get my HUNK fix...(Oh Joe Manganiello...one day you'll make me the perfect 2nd husband). The students are different. Some read instructions, some clearly don't. Makes group tasks rather interesting to complete. School is school though and just as boring as it was when I was 16. I love to learn, however, being made to write essays about subjects I could care less about is never fun. Ah well. Poor me. :)
Anyways, on the relationships front, I've been in a bit of a lull. Actually, make that a giant STOP sign. I still talk to Loveland who only wants an on call vagina, and Tennessee, who just likes to have someone to complain to, and London, who just is. However, in an interesting twist, my ex, Alabama, called me and said he would like to meet for dinner while he is in town on business (ie. court). Yes, he is winner. Its a little misdemeanor, that doesn't count right? Its not like he's Dr. Lector. I agreed to go, I'm curious will it be a booty call? How will it turn out? I'll keep ya posted. That's if he even shows, he tends to say a lot and do a little.
I also moved. I live in Colorado Springs, so saying that, it means the last two summers we've been going through fire seasons. On a serious note, I was very close to being evacuated in this most current one, called Black Forest fire. Several people I know were evacuated, and a few even lost their homes. My good friend, The Cougar, her parents lost their home. Its such a tragedy. My job was particularly close to it. My new home is not, however, the view from it is of last years burn scar...so if it rains too much, we'd be in flood danger. It feels as if we will never not have giant fires in our beautiful state. There has been so much loss already and still more to come as new fires are eating their way through my state as I type. The wind brings in the constant smell of fire....the sky is an odd shade of grey; the horizon is often times hazy with a orangish red moon at night. We go about our busy lives, when less then a mile from me are the burned out shells of former stunning, multimillion dollar homes that were ravaged by fire last year, and less then 10 miles away, the homes that have been ravaged by fire this year. Its disheartening to drive in either of those directions, and my heart constantly goes out to all those affected in all the fires in this state.
On a lighter note, I discovered something new, they may become my new obsession besides shoes and purses.....subscription boxes. That's right. Monthly subscriptions to boxes of goodies. Ive started with two, Glossybox and Ipsy. I thought Id give them a whirl, try out their beauty products and if I like them maybe try more. I spend wayyyy too much money on hair/beauty goods in a month, so maybe this will curtail that a bit? I hope so and so does my checking account, although I suspect my credit card companies would prefer I keep spending ungodly amounts of time at Sephora. As I get the boxes I'll share what's in them and if their even worth the effort.
Well, it was nice catching up! Ill be back on again when I have updates or something interesting to tell!